Times like these I can't help but to feel upset, fat, short, dumb and ugly. When I look around me, I observed that my friends have move on to other stages of their lives. And it seems that I am the only one stagnant. I did not make any progression in life. I am struggling as I am still uncertain of what I want in life and the problem is I am not doing so well now. Where do I seek courage? Courage builds on top of faith. Where do I seek faith? Or am I now purely being stubborn? Where can I go if I choose to leave now?
Took this pic coz my friends say I don't cam whore.
Lost touch with blogspot for few months and today is the day where I can finally settle down with a cup of hot chocolate and peaceful musics. Frankly the year of 2012 isn't as challenging as 2011. Perhaps school life is more restricted and less exposed than being in society. Well, summer holiday is here. Suffered backache, headache and flu during the intense period of exam. I really need to consider setting a fund aside just for exam emergency purposes.
Today, I would like to share an adventurous trip to Bangkok and Krabi in Thailand December 2011. It may sound like a child play to some people but to me it sounds like a joke. I planned this trip 6 months beforehand. Yea, I always plan beforehand as I hate last minute preparation. However, I guess I've made a terrible mistake for choosing Krabi as my finial destination for the year of 2011. I believe people who travel often enough know that it is a bad choice to go for beach holiday in December. I guess I must be out of my mind. It was totally different from what I expected. I wanted to capture the sunset just like the one I captured in Bali. Man proposes, god disposes. It was raining through out the days I'm staying there. We did island hopping in drizzle, combining it with the sea waves, it chills me to the bone. Strange or what? The moment my friends and I stepped onto to long-tail boat ready for departure, the sun came out.
Having said that, my unfortunate trip has to begin with the days in Bangkok. We arrived at Bangkok on the 27th Dec 2011, all we had in mind was to shop shop and shop! First day was great, we ate food we planned to eat. However, our nightmare began when we patronised a roadside stall for it's egg fried rice. The flood in Bangkok subsided not long ago, we thought the food should be quite safe but I was wrong. We got food poisoning there and that's just the third day of my trip (sigh). Among the four of us, three of us were down with food poisoning and the ultimate survivor with an iron stomach became our nanny. Ya we shed blood and tears in this trip hence it makes us even closer.
The worst day came when we are departing Bangkok for Krabi. The transport mode are transfer from hotel to airport ( a taxi), a plane, a transfer from the Krabi airport to jetty ( a van, quite comfortable but long journey), a small motorbike for a short distance to jetty, a long-tail boat and lastly a pair of legs.
On this day, I was having serious diarrhoea and slight fever. I keep running to the toilet even though I have taken the charcoal pills. Fever makes me dizzy and cold hence make travelling even tougher. All was manageable until I reached the jetty in Krabi. It was low tide around 8pm , winds are strong and the long tail boat was shaky, There's sea water in the boat not a lot but still quite disturbing. And so the 30 mins plus of long-tail boat journey began. There are no jetty at the resort!! Due to low tides, the boat cannot get near the shore. We were asked to alight about 100m away from the shore. The sea water reached just below my knee ( I have the average height of Singapore girls.) It was freaking cold! Luckily I have male friends to carry my luggage for me. The most upsetting part was that after walking half the journey towards the shore, they drove a truck n pick us up. Why can't they do that earlier?!
This day was New Year Eve.
I thought I would have been sitting at the sea side enjoying the night sea breeze, having a beer in hand and appreciating the fireworks. In reality? I was in the room trying to get myself bathed (without hot water) and sleep. I heard fireworks outside but I was just too weak to get up. Ya that's my New Year Eve. I got many messages from friends wishing me good year ahead and enjoy my day and they don't know how shitty I felt at that point in time. That sucks.
The beauty of the nocturne in the New Year Eve is the experience. Shitty it is but hopefully its once in a life time experience. At least I have something to reminisce. The beach is really beautiful if it didn't rain.