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It's just a few metres away from the physics lab to the library, however it seems to take years for me to reach the there. Every single step taken accompanied by tears and heart aches as if it is going to rip apart. 
I heard laughter coming out from the hall. It's so absurd. It only makes me even worst. Yeah, the whole school is celebrating something in the hall. But our class "just nice" got A lvl SPA exam. LOL
After the SPA where she left, I couldn't help reproaching myself...I'm so useless.
I feel the pain because I love her. "Love brings miseries" no matter what kind of love. That's what I learnt.
I have a very WEAK heart. Seriously, I cannot take another blow. 2009 is a dreadful year. I need to survive! I probably have to "end" my life next year in exchange. I mean no life after all.
I'll vanish in front of my blog for a few months. Particularly for this few reasons.
1) I don't wish to project any left over feelings about that senior.
2) I don't want to exert my anger bcoz of that stupid turtle on my blog.
3) I want to have some time to think about how my life shld begin on a fresh new page.
Pardon me.. this may be quite a long post. Let me finish this last "emotional" post to end my 2008 coz I feel the urge to write it out.
I find myself rather silly coz there's once quite a nice person beside me for I think at least a few years. I'm not blind neither am I numb. I can feel it. But something seems to be lacking in between, affinity i guess. Hahaha we are friends now of course though... hardly contact. Some sleepless night does remind me of what that person did to coax me to sleep. Well..people do grow up don't we?. Urmm I feel somehow in debt to this person bcoz of some silly stuff I've done. Even though it happens very very long time ago but whenever I see this person I tend to feel awkward. What to do? Perhaps I really think too much but I really just want to get rid this kind of thinking. So turning down this person's offer, somehow makes me feel better. Hmmmm anyway I believe that this person will definitely find someone worth his attention. And perhaps I'll find someone that is my cup of tea. Whatever it is.. I'm very happy to have him as my friend.
And... a couple of days ago I flipped through my secondary school year book. Then I realise that my Sec school friends all look so cute. Kind of like miss those days a lot. Maybe that's what people always say.. you only start to treasure things when they are gone.
Then again... I have this hopeless feeling making me uneasy this few days. It's like holding on to a pile of sand. My desire seems to be falling off the moment I tired to grab it tightly. I think everyone got this kind of feeling especially a greedy person like me. hahahha Actually I'm very scare.. never felt this kind of fear before. Because next year is full of uncertainties. Ammm at least something is certain, that is I can be myself as I have nothing to worry about other than my studies. (and some asshole which I hate are gone hahahha)
I'm trying to hide my fear with some emo expression but actually I'm just speechless. Coz sometime staring at something can make me feel easier as I don't hv to hide my feelings from the eyes of the others. Just simply put it this way.. I can't even face myself if I were to fail again. I never have this urge for yearning something so much. I've been a coward, a shirker for quite sometime. Yeah..despair! I don't know when will I break down again.
I.... dare not even make any wishes this year coz.. I know it will only be realise with my own hands. Hai.. don't know how hectic will it be nxt year.. all I can do is to take things in my stride. Eleven months of torment have arrived.
Well that's all, New year is coming. BYE~
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By the time I reached HK on 3rd of Dec is alrdy evening, so nothing much. O ya.. the duration of the flight is abt 3hrs 20+ mins. Temperature: 15-16 degree Celsius.
The first thing which cannot be forgotten when I woke up on the very next day is to Hong Kong Disney Land. The size of it was abt the same as Tokyo Disney Land, but the only thing which differentiate them is the FIREWORKS! (HK Disney Land Christmas Firework Special)
This are some of the pictures taken in HK Disney Land. I was rather excited because I got to take photos with both my favourite cartoon characters-Donald duck & Pooh. Some of the buildings are quite nice too.
Also, some bubbles released to make the effect of snowing.
Fireworks..quite blur la..coz my phone graphic sux. the the song not bad.
The castle changes colour and somewhere near the ending, the firework is the best.
Along the trip, Guang Zhou was the place I hated most. Why? Because the place is DIRTY and crowed, the ppl there was damn rude and service sux. Other than that the food there was the best.. really it's tasty (better than ShangHai leh Xiu jing)
Okay, the purpose for going there is to look for my distance relatives. It's like sitting in a time machine, we move a century backwards. This is the house lived by my great grandfather and it had a history of abt 100yrs. It's been vacant for more than half a century I guess.
This lock..locked up the secrets of the past ancestor. hahah LOL
The scenery wasn't bad either
Macau!! I always wanted to go there and take pictures so pls bear with me a little.. coz there's quite a lot of pics. Ummm I went to the casino in Macau, ya this is my first time which I step inside. It was really very big.. and all the ppl there smoke. Ummm you can really feel the excitment even though you are not gambling. 
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*食在好味道＊Good taste
These are some of the food I've tried which I find it not bad. Starting from Hong kong.
This is 蟹黄小龙包(xie huang xiao long bao) which cost 22.50HKD = 4.50 SGD EACH. The soup inside is sweet and not salty. There's strong fragrance of different spice.
Coming up next was the toast bread 猪仔奶油包. It was spread with butter and condense milk. The ratio of it was just nice and it was so crunchy. Eat it with a cup of hot lemon honey.. oO...it's heavenly.
Well, I never like to eat fishball noodle. But this time round was an exception. This 鱼丸何粉汤(fishball horfen) is really tasty. The fishball was bouncy and the combination of horfen with the soup.. hmmmm they are just a perfect match.
I bet, those who loves to eat should have hear this sentence before "吃在广州". Though I don't like that place, but I can't deny that the food there was the best. 
This is the 道地小龙包 (xiao long bao). The meat was juicy, the skin doesn't tear easily. hahahhah YUMMY
I went to this very famous 3 storey tall restaurant which sells sea food, I don't rmb the name. Because my family and I were too full so we didn't order those dishes. But there was this dessert, call 花好桂圆 it's actually red bean soup with dumplings.
It's hard to make it tasty and yet not too sweet.. so I really like this dessert. 
Everyone knows that Macau was once ruled by Portuguese, so I must try the Portuguese egg tarts. I don't know how to describe it.. but I really feel like having one
Now, let me show you my 战利品! I think I spent a total of about 2000 HKD roughly about 300+ SGD. But actually nothing much leh.. 
This two items add together cost me a total of 1,053 HKD = 200 SGD...zzz I regret for buying this... if not I can spend it on other stuff... ARRRRRR
Here I spent a total of about 300+ HKD = 60+ SGD
Five princess, this is rather cheap which cost 250 HKD = 50 SGD. Bought this at the Hong kong airport before departing.
Mickey umbrella, which cost 150 HKD = 30 SGD
So I'll upload some of my "artistic" photos onto my facebook. Hurray...zzz time to study..................
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This might be one of the biggest gamble which will affect my life seriously. Since I'm given this 2 month I'll use it wisely. I won't let the turtle look down on me. Well, I remember every single word it told me.
"you don't even have the basic content, don't tell me you don't have the skills" BRAVO! I'll remember this sentence, I'll make sure he regret for saying such things to me. Don't always use the past statistic to demoralise me. "Jump 3 grades impossible" hahhaha let's see whether does miracle happens.
Well, I don't believe in miracle, I believe in I reap what I sow! Stupid turtle... I sincerely thank you for agitating me! You make my fire burn even stronger. You're the no.1 person I wanted to tear apart. You give me hell, in return I'll make you lose your face!
Do you know what is the longest distance I've cried? From the moment I step out from the school gate all the way till I board a bus even until I reach my house. Approx around 40++ minutes. I feel so embarrass! 很狼狈 but i can't help.. I have a lot of "bad" thoughts in my mind. I feel like killing this turtle, I feel like finding a place to hide. This turtle make me feel so worthless. I lose my dignity... this is a battle that worth my dignity..I HAVE TO GET IT BACK. (it's not a kidding matter)
Xiu jing, do u wanna neo who is this turtle?
Just wait and see.
Boarding plane at 2pm, will be back at 10th of dec. Bye