Labels: move on
"There's a reason why some ppl do not make it to ur life". Roughly about a yr ago, i tot tat as long as one try their best, nothing is impossible. That was e last time i allowed myself to cry til i'm breathless. Not bcoz of anyone else..but myself. The day which i receive my Os, is e day tat i'l nv forget. And bcoz of that i cldnt..I CLDNT allow a repeat in history. I'm juz too desperate for achievement. Hahaha but e irony part is..i screwed up every single chance tat i'm given with.
From that moment, i learn not to cry. Not even a drop of tear is allowed. Coz even if i cry til i dehydrate or fainted.. Still e problem exists.
I used e same attitude towards e relationship (which every single one is a failure) to continue with my life and live on-move on. Fortunately, i can still eat and slp well. Though nothing i can do to change e fact tat u still love her, i still wish tat u're able to get over with it soon.
I feel no hate, neither do i feel any love. Hopefully, i'm able to maintain tis kind of mindset and feelings each time i c u.
I was down for duty for e ANKE performance ytd. It was a nice one.. i particularly love e song they played(Spirited away ending theme). A..i forgot to record hahah coz i was taking photos.
Parents went oversea AGAIN. Well, kinda like use to it.
Life in a mess...i was laggin behind for my studies lol.
Labels: Fung title
look out on a summer's day with eyes that know the
darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills sketch the trees and the daffodils
catch the breeze and the winter chills
in colors on the snowy linen land.
now I understand what you tried to say to me.
how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen they did not know how perhaps they'll listen now.
Starry starry night flaming Flor's that brightly blaze
swirling clouds in violet haze reflect in Vincent's eyes of China blue.
Colors changing hue morning fields of amber grain
weathered faces lined in pain are soothed beneath the artist's
loving hand.
now I understand what you tried to say to me
how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free.
perhaps they'll listen now.
For they could not love you
but still your love was true
and when no hope was left in sight on that starry starry night.
You took your life as lovers often do;
But I could have told you Vincent, this world was never
meant for one as beautiful as you.
Starry starry night portraits hung in empty halls
frame less heads on nameless walls with eyes
that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the stranger that you've met the ragged men in ragged clothes
the silver thorn of bloody rose lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
now I think I know what you tried to say to me
how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen
they're not listening still
perhaps they never will. 
Labels: move on
Sometime i wonder why do i always like to scold ppl "asshole". It somehow became my favourite line..."sickening asshole, stop being an asshole and freaky ass".
Reaching home after 1800 and before 1930 everyday without fail. Behind my house, there's always a group of ppl playing soccer. The noise they produced reminds me of u. That is also the only time u come across my mind, not after I've reached home.
Finally, I've accepted the fact that I'm gonna sit for e examination and there's no way i can escape! AND also e fact that I'm gonna miss my drama and pulling a long face thru out e whole yr (dear frenzs pls pardon me).
Zz somehow flunked my CD spa with a wrong unit and sources of error. Well..I've tried my best.
After 4 months, i went to c a bonesetter to get my ankle out of it's agony. It seems that e 10mins rubbing doesnt seems to work at all.. Coz my ankle is still aching and swollen. hai..y wld a fall frm e stairs caused so many problems??
and... o ya.. got my hair permed 1 mnth ago. Sometime it curl sometime it doesnt. I miss my frenz.. such as samzila.. hasn't been talking to him for 2 mnths... miss he's crap... but i don't hv time to go online.
But still I'll stick to one entry per wk basis. nite
Labels: move on
Rmb the first drama i watched filming lam Fung was A taste of love. Back then he was juz an extra, someone not attracting. Right after that was A step into the past, he was one of the baddy. He proves that as a novice, his acting is appreciable. But,the drama which gave me an unforgettable impression was Survivor's law. 
In this drama, he acted as a cheerful and helpful lawyer. Ammm kind of like his character in this show..hahaha that's when i know i've been fully attracted by him. Nevertheless, my favourite drama among all is Enternal Happiness. The story was about a gal who wish to prove that women are capable to do things which men can do in the past.(which is wat i always yearn for)
Well, there's always a big diff btween reality and fantasy. No matter how devoted i am towards Lam fung, it is still something unrealistic. But i still rather chose to be in this way. (why?)I found something on him which others cant give me; security.
Hahaha..if i wld hv to type out the story behind this...zzz it would become a 500 words essay. I am particularly fond of his vocal, his voice calm me down, accompany me through thick and thin, ups and downs... YES! That's how amazing his voice is (Or perhaps to me only).
Sad to say, due to the time constrain, i can hardly SQUEEZE out time to watch his new drama. So probably there'll be times where i'll give a very SIAN look lol...
With the HATE i have in my heart, it is definitely impossible for me to love anyone else..(currently???) 
Hopefully i'll get to watch his drama(new one) in da holidays!
~one and only beloved LAM FUNG~
Labels: move on
Never succeed in anything. This seems to become a curse in my life. Perhaps the so-call abstract is not abstract but artistic. Or probably is gotta do wif my own nerves? or what.
Ya ya ya.. I'm losing my temper more and more frequently. Everything seems to get on my nerves, even the slightest things irritates me.
A late rebellion.
I had enough.
YOU abandon me at first,
so i wont feel gulity for being a cynic OR think like one.
I dont talk doesnt mean i'm moody.(hey com'on la, i neo that NO ONE believes tat i dont like to talk)
Laughing a lot doesnt mean i'm hyper. (CANT i juz laugh?)
I was heart-broken and extremely disappointed but what can i do? Honestly, i'm not sad at all. My life still have to goes on. However, nothing can ever dilute the hate i have, love is not what i need to fill up my unhappiness. All i need is a qualification- something to account, for throwing my temper.
Nite 
