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I was doing a speech; is it worth getting married? Then a question hit me... when will i find my true love? Very likely that it will nv be found. HA! finally... the course is gonna end and all i wan is to get over and done with it...TML.
Zz..i really hate standing alone at the bus-stop(outside MI). Not only bcoz the bus 178 take yrs to come, e main reason i guess is bcoz it reminds me that very one time seeing you at tis bus-stop. You sat there eating lollipop swinging your legs, juz like a little kid. Now,everything are still e same as usual..the only different is that the mind and heart no longer feel the same as it shld. I'm puzzle, not very certain about what exactly do i wan. Is it you that i cant bear to put down or is it that kind of feeling(having someone to think of)i dont wish to forget.
My heart was broken, tears have dried out, hopes perishes, but, i know how to survive. A 18 yrs old gal who doesn't hold any hope in this aspect, who once believe that one shld fight for its own happiness, lost her dignity.
Nxt..nxt fri, releasing of A level result. I hope and pray i'l go home early and nv had a chance to meet you. I'l get on with my life.. say "hi" to myself every morning. Rmb to eat regularly, concentrate on my studies... keep myself fit and good looking(hahaha).. brace myself up if i met any failure again. and be more careful if i ever injure myself again. say happy birthday to myself, merry christmas.. etc
Perhaps one day i'l get use to tis kind of life and i neo i will....
i stone in this room.. waitin for time to fly... 
over exposed?
Labels: move on
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The sky was dark and full of stars. I took a deep breathe in.. i must brace myself up. Even though i feel as if i'm dying, still my life goes on. I wont regret for any decisions i've made, despite the fact that notihng went according to what i planned.
Though it seems that something is missing in some part of my life, i stil manage to find ways to make myself happy. To speak the truth, i could still feel your existance in school. Especially when there's no one around, every single corner seems to have your shadow walking pass (sound like ghost?)... Hmmm but that was only a few seconds, after that i'm distracted by my tons of homework.
Sometimes i juz cldnt stand it, juz imagine your mind keep flashing back those foolish images.. Not a normal person can withstand and endure. All i can say is.. perhaps i juz need more time to adapt.
You can never disdain the influences your peers hv on u. It can be so powerful that you wont realise that you hv actually been influenced! hahaha They are part of my driving force, to have something to look forward to and lastly to share with.
Qn time!
Ever wonder y m i so talkative?
Coz i dont wan my brain to have..not even a second to think of anytihng silly.
To my surprise, though i know this yr is gonna be hectic, least do i expect it was SO HECTIC! Well, nvm.. i enjoy abit here and not abit there hahahaha. Currently juz hope to get done and over with that damn public speaking course. I really dont wanna go for the competiton (ARRRRR)! Anyone pls.. get me out of it.
In the nutshell, is fortunate to hv friends to pour ur sorrow with. One of my hobby is to complain my unhappiness and my anger will get smoothen out slowly. ^^
Puny poem
Wind blows, fallen leaves symbolise your parting.
Twinkling stars seems to understood how i feel.
Peace is what i'm searching and
Silence is all i need.
Your departure took my dignity away,
left no mercy, i'm suffering.
Winter passed, spring arrived,
My sanity returns, there it is.. i know
my threshold of new life begins!
__ANNIE__
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I regretted for saying that i want to prove that i'm capable. Perhaps you got my msg and then you got me stuck in this dilemma. I should not blame you for this... Coz in my subconscious mind, i've been yearning for it long ago. You make me realize how inferior i am and i'm indeed a person with no confidence at all. This will go on and i'm bound to be a failure until i learn how to manage it.
Dont tell me these are all for my benefits..
i'm sick and tired of failing! Pls... dont say that this is part of growing up.
How many times muz i fall in order for me to grow up? I never learn... The worst part is not that you dont admit your mistakes, is you dont know where your errors are. Even friends around me couldnt help much..
Oh why, why do u still call my name? i tot we aint that well acquainted..
It will make me feel worst by turining back and say hi or smile. You reminds me of the dignity i've lost. Til now, i still cldnt get it back.
My only hope to get it back is through my studies. However, i'm getting more and more restless (dont understand phys,geo,econ and i dont really neo how to read chinese characters!). Notwithstanding the stress, i can pull it through.
MY COMPLAIN of the day
- Damn it, i failed to finish my 2.4km run today. All thanks to my useless lungs.