Labels: move on
Stopped blogging for 6 months as I couldn't find time at all. University year 1 semester 1 is finally over and I am glad that I can allocate some time to settle my personal stuff other than school work now.
Before I log in to blog, my mind would have been filled with many things I want to share but when I really settled down to think of what to type.. I always ended up being indecisive.
University life is really hectic, all you could have been doing will be studying and socializing. "Personal time" become a stranger to you. Perhaps my time management is really bad, I ended up with no excess time for my family. The good thing is in this 3.5 months of school, I get to make some really cool friends. Well, many things happened some are pleasant some are not but whatever it is, all unhappiness is resolved.
While I was about to write a new post in my blog, I saw a draft written 6months ago named as "A letter that came 4 years late". I decided not to post it out in the end because I know if I don't stop my own deception now, I might stuck in resentment. Every now and then, I have to try so hard to maintain my balance between contentment and desires. I have to do many many balancing exercise whenever I feel resentful.
I am not an angel. I am just a very selfish and stubborn human. For all these years I've suffered and learned my lessons for being stubborn and willful. Despite of all setups faced I am still very firm of getting what I want..what I fancy most. Unless I have tried my best to achieve it, if not I will not give up. Perhaps this applies to my unrequited love. I have drain away all the possible ways to settle my resentment. I am trying so hard to keep myself busy but as long as I stop all my efforts are down to drain. I still... think about you.
