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Ytd was e urmmm hahahha sec sch ex class gathering. Celebrated rain's birthday before hand and reach e bbq session only at 9pm. Intended to leave at 11pm but turn out that we left at 3am.
I still couldnt get this out of my head bcoz it's really damn lame and funny. We played e revise version of UNO game called e UNO(sure win) hahah only that person we aimed to sabbo will lose. Thus, it's call uno sure win lol. Thanks to e contribution of e card owner-Keith hahahah. Samuel was e unfornate one. Hahaha and he was punished 3 times hahaha.
Well, couldnt really state down how much fun I had last night and it's been quite sometime since i laugh to my heart's content. Thank you guys. Hope to c u all nxt yr. 
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不理时间的人- GIGI 梁咏琪
等起飞的我
在某一个登机口看着小说
在几小时之后
有另一些陌生的人在等我
我努力了很久
也已经能习惯了这样的生活
又孤单又快乐
而有些人不需要联络
走了我再也不理时间了
让那些梦慢慢生绣
爱情的美也许因为会飞走
走了那再也不管时间的我
在另一个时区降落
再也不怕会落空
等我向前飞我心暖了
你让我学会了自由
ho 现在我可以说 oh ho~
Some wounds can't be seen on the surface because it's deep inside. Everything will be okay as long as no one touches it but things can get very serious once it is being exposed. NAH, not emo again?? NOPE, I'm not. Just wanna write down how calm and peaceful I am this few weeks and so peaceful that I feel numb.
Currently trying to get myself into full revision mood. I think soon..zz and I suddenly got a lot of ideas on what I wanna do after my A lvl and where I wanna go etc. I picture myself alone doing all these things, but 又孤单又快乐 is really how I'm feeling now. Bye
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My self-declare 4 days of holiday have finally come to an end. Yes, I've calm myself down and I've made some decision.
Other than adjusting my sleeping time and diet...I have to do something to my mood.
I won't get too excited or too emotional over everything. My health has deteriorated since starting of the year. I think my mood swing really have a negative impact on my health.
My concentration span contracted since starting of March. So I won't let my mood swing affects my studies. So I'm gonna end my life starting tml..hahaha as in no life la..
Currently, I'm practicing how to feel numb. Where I can reach a stage when I think of any things else other than studies..I'll fall asleep. Cool rite?
Left another..I think less than 5 months is the start of actual A lvl examination. If that's all it takes-ending my life. Fine then, I'll abide.
That's all bye.
P.S Lam Fung's concert in Hong Kong is 17 & 18 June..damn Hopefully it can be cut into an album so that I can buy. LOL
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Alright, after sinking for quite sometime I've decided to type out how I feel during the past few weeks. After got fooled and felt so embarrassed for only a week, I got myself out from that uncertain and unclear situation.
Sadness is gone (definitely), but I got to know myself better. Thanks to this idiot which makes me realise that I still bother about how that someone think of me. The moment I got fooled I felt so angry but I don't feel jealous at all. Initially thought of hating that idiot but after a week this kind of feeling starts to fade away. Whatever it is related to that idiot doesn't bother me anymore. (well, anyway thanks to xiu's encouragement that muz take revenge hahha) Oo come on, no one is indispensable.. urmm k perhaps I haven met one.
**K,I'm done with that idiot**
Yesterday was a bad day for me. I broke my Mickey head hair tie rubber band in the morning where all the bling bling diamond like thingy fall out and I have to think of a way to fix it back. I was unhappy not bcoz I have to stay until 4 plus, in fact leaving sch before 5 is consider quite early. I just don't like that sudden changes and I didn't bring any notes for that lesson. I got Pang Seh by two frenzs which agree to play Big 2 during that free period and I'm left to mug my math in the library..
Got even piss off when I'm stuck in one of those stupid question. I'm feeling terrible not bcoz I'm stuck. I used to be able to do these type of questions last year. K, is a revision. I keep bracing myself up by telling myself that I haven been doing this for the past 7 months so is pretty normal that I forgot how to do. But it's useless! Arrhh... I think I'm juz feeling stress so my brain doesn't work that well anymore..at least for math. I feel as if I'm sinking.
So I gave myself a break and that's today-skipped school. I think I need a few days to calm down coz I don't wanna c people don't wanna c sunlight. I know I'm stubborn, headstrong, wilful and perhaps unreasonable sometimes. I know I have attitude problem coz I tend to dislike whoever I see if I'm bu shuang. Ya..ya.. I seriously appreciate those who endure such a girl like me. That's y I choose to sit somewhere else away from the crowd whenever I'm feeling so down.
I know I have reach a point of stagnation. Nothing went right for me hahha. So much effort put in and yet nothing change (I'm referring to my studies). Something is wrong with my attitude. I feel so rebellious at times. Hai..whatever la. I've anticipated that my Geo will fail in my prelim 1. Phys and Math won't do any better. GP is so unpredictable.. Gosh! My life is in chaos.
I'm not sure since when I starts to become a fatalist. I won't say I'm totally resign to my fate. But I just don't trust myself. At least my past experiences told me that I better don't. Why is that person so close yet so far? It's been like this for the past two years. And I've been like this for the past two years.
I tried to go against what is destined. Take for instances, the MI challenge 2007. After locking myself up for 3 weeks, I leave my house (I'm down for my CCA duty) with sorrow and agony. Having heard that the senior took part in the 42.195km race I tot perhaps I may get this one last chance to see him running pass after he graduate. But I didn't. I packed my stuff and leave this country for a week and found a quiet place to run away from those unfortunate things that happened around me. It took me a lot of courage to get back and face the reality that losing someone close and seeing ur close one in pain is a form of torture to urself coz u cant do anything to help.
Hahaha It's a tough lesson learnt. A lot of things are fated and perhaps predestined. Things which are not meant to be yours will never be. I choose to stay away and kept some distance with frenzs coz if any unfortunate things happen at least I won't feel so devastated. I know is silly to think in this way but I haven really walk out from that fear of mine.
I think that's the reason for me being so distant n cold. Hmmm that so far yet so close is doing fine. At least I see him doing fine in school now. We each have our own life to live and I know our road will never meet.
Damn..I wrote whole chunk of rubbish out in the morning. Don't know who are the patient one that have that kind of American time to finish reading all these..zz I juz wanna write it off to smoothen my imperfectness in life. BYE
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Wendy and I went to eat the Sakae buffet yesterday, our last visit was about 6 months ago if I'm not wrong. As usual, there's always some left over food so we have to think of a way to "get rid" of it juz to escape from the extra charge.
urmmm we strongly recommend that don't eat this coz the taste really sux.
Finally, the last paper for A lvl SPA is over! Kind of relief hahah coz is 20% of A lvl marks. LOL
I was listening this song by twins few days back, this song was quite old actaully. Juz read those words in bold.
追女仔
为何还自卑口袋真的有点干
为何凡事我想分帐吃饭便有汗
不要误会平治宝马便能做我蜜糖
何妨陪著我互享便当
无人敢追我常常家里坐
求你杖义出手救助
谁惨得过想爱未爱
是表我未能合衬么
为何都不敢追我为何都怯懦
情去到极限甚黱也冲破
连谈情也得衡量过
无非你实在未看起我
明明凭绝色心地可使我风摩
男孩难道要长得美才能堕爱河
好老实平凡样子注定难敌过帅哥
可惜爱上了帅哥不会易过
说到底要相亲相爱才能拍得过
你以为是斗美再去斗财势么
为何还为彷佛我高歌
傻人其实你天生太善良便带傻
可笑是仍然害羞碰面严重到要躲
恕我太恶死尽快追我
About a month ago my dad told me this out of the blue. He say if u dare to stead u're gonna get it from me. LOL serious one I knew it hahhahaha. Rest assure dad, coz I won't.
That's all for today..bye