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As usually, Wendy and I went to West Mall to eat the Sake Sushi buffet. To my horror, Wendy actually came out with this crazy idea to "settle" e remaining inedible food..
We order a salmon dish which look so appealing and delicious on the menu. But when it was out on our table, it was whole lot of different! Taste was horrible also. Follow up with quite a few sushi ordered by Wendy was left over on the table.
The manager said he is going to charge us additional fee for the left over. And Wendy said immediately that she will eat it NOW. hahah fat hope la...
She suggest that we should put the sushi into the corner of the chair and hide it there.. well this idea was still acceptable actually. But I think it's disgusting when it comes to dealing with the salmon.
Initially, she suggest putting it on the saucer n cover it with wasabi. But there's quite a plenty left. So she threw the remaining 4 pieces into the tea cup.. fill it up with hot water and cover it with tea bag.. It looks so oily on top lol. hahah but it was quite fun la.. laugh until my tears came out.
ZZz the most thrilling part is when we are about to pay our bill. Hahaha I think the manager will be cursing us.. hahah.
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你或许不知道放弃你让我连再爱的勇气都没有了。我也很清楚的知道我会有好一段日子不会再爱。
我想我必须等待那个能让我感动的人，那种感觉才会出现吧。
我想萧洒一点，这样也可以拿回一点尊严。
这是最后一次想你。离开我的世界吧。我会找到真正属于我的。你也会。或许这也是一种解脱。
To someone I once loved.
& to friends who are in dilemma.
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Perhaps this will be the last MT lesson in my life. hahaha
Then it comes to our first and perhaps the last class gathering...
We had a pizza feast lol
Some are leaving and some due to other arrangement we won't be in the same class next year. Hope they each and everyone will hv their own success. Love always, Annie.
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I wld like to delicate this song to one of my friend. Hope that this song could reduce ur pain a little. Take it easy. Fate will bring two souls together, if you and him are meant to be.
IF WE WERE TOGETHER
something happen to me,
on the day we met,
now you're the one I can't forget,
did you feel it，too,
would a dream come ture,
if we were together,
in love forever,
now wherever I go,
it's you i find,
in my heart and on my mind,
right at if you belong,
would it be so wrong,
if we were together,
in love forever,
if we were together,
i'll never look back and say
that i'll regret one day
i swear with you
and i will treasure each kiss
i will adore you like this
if we were together
in love forever.
if we were together
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Life was great. Is so gd to be one of the member in the "promoted table" lol. I fall in love with the ME who love to spend $$. Shopping was a good way to release unhappiness. hahha money is so impt. nothing else matter. hahahahaha
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Great, kinda like having a relief coz I've make a decision. Promo lol. I'll re-make my decision again after nxt yr common test. Sch was in a mess. coz many ppl's mood was in a mess hahaha. What to do? That's life.
Thanks to the advices n suggestions given by my 3 GREAT teachers. They make me grow up so much in 2 days time.
我已不再痴于情. To reach this level is actually quite hard lol. Not that I'm trying to show off how great I am but in fact you hv to been thru quite a lot juz to get into this stage.
Love to me is nothing. whether does it exist a not, it wouldn't affect my life. However, there is still something which I cldnt get over. This perhaps require a higher level of skills to overcome the temptation. Material seduction hahhaha.
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This is ever gonna be my hardest decision to make in my 19 yrs of being a human. Let's analyse:
Promo-- I only have abt 8 mnths to chiong everything.
Getting a U to C/D nxt yr for Geo is probably a miracle that no one has make in MI.
I don't have faith. But I'm willing to try no matter what it takes.
Retain-- most appealing element is TIME. But I really don't wanna run another 2.4km
But once again I can't guarantee that I can pass my Geo given a larger time span.
SO tell me... what shld I do? promo or retain? this is driving me crazy its killing me. I don't dare to decide, I have phobia.
Hai, why hv I gotten myself into such desperate state?
Some frenz say I'm nuts. Teachers say I'm mature. Am I being too rational or irrational?
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What a day. Woke up realising my eyes was a bit swollen. A sudden ache in my stomach, OMG is my old pal who came to visit me. This gasrtic pain is different form the normal one coz the root of it is STRESS.
So whole day sitting on my sofa watching tv and ya so I took my medicine and went for a nap. This is rather serious coz normally I jus have to eat once and it will recover. But after I woke up.. zzz so I have to take another pill. I think is time to dye my hair bLack..lol though I see no link with this.
Are you lonesome tonight? by Elvis Presley
Are you lonesome tonight,
Do you miss me tonight?
Are you sorry we drifted apart?
Does your memory stray
To a brighter sunny day
When I kissed you
And called you sweetheart?
Do the chairs in your parlor
Seem empty and bare?
Do you gaze at your doorstep
And picture me there?
Is your heart filled with pain
Shall I come back again?
Tell me dear
Are you lonesome tonight?
I wonder if you're lonesome tonight
You know someone said that the world's a stage
And each must play a part.
Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart.
Act one was when we met
I loved you at first glance
You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue
Then came act two
You seemed to change and you acted strange
And why I'll never know.
Honey, you lied when you said you loved me
And I had no cause to doubt you.
But I'd really go on hearing your lies
Than go on living without you.
Now the stage is bare and I'm standing there
With emptiness all around
And if you won't come back to me
Then make them bring the curtain down.
Is your heart filled with pain
Shall I come back again?
Tell me dear
Are you lonesome tonight?
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The worst thing is not being the worst among the worst but stuck in b/w best and worst. Once again my life has reach another road junction, this time round the traffic light is green, hah! that means I'm able to cross to another path. But it's blinking.. shld I cross?
Shld i opt for retain? or try my luck since I'm given a clear pass? Hai.....
What will it takes to enter local uni? I'm not the supreme one. My tears does not symbolise sadness but dissatisfaction instead! I must and I will change it BCOZ I cannot accept this and never will I.
Geography gives me hell and I really hate it.
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I don't intend to blog this out initially but it just perturb me so even though I know that ppl who I'm referring to might read it, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.So from now on I shall live my life in my way according to my likes and dislike. I don't care whether u guys like it or not.. I had enough.
Let's spill it ALL out. What's the problem with u huh? Seriously I had enough and I put it up long enough with your attitude. Take it as I'm the one who had change, from enduring to unendurable, I don't wanna stay silent anymore.
I know I've offended a lot of ppl. I KNOW. U said u know me too well, hahaha damn it this is a curse..actually u don't! Both of us are so selfish and that unwillingness to be the first to apologise is the only common point we had.
I should have know it from the start, our characters are too extreme, so is either close frenz or enemy. Perhaps the day of stagnation have finally arrive. I'm not going to be the one to make the change. Let's wait for it to happen itself. Which I think most probably not.
I won't say this out, probably I'm still hoping something out from this. Take this as the last thing I can do for this relationship. I'm sorry... I broke my promise.
What's wrong with it? I'm just being true to myself. My frens ain't superficial but I am. I'm the one.. I really don't know how to face you. What attitude must I use? How shld I treat u? I haven't come up with any ideas that can lead to a win-win situation. So although I hate it I really hate it but I hv to put up a front that nothing happen. I'm trying very hard to avoid times that we might need to communicate.
I'm not angry just that I really have no idea how shld i face you. It's such a shame that we ended up like this and the worst is perhaps u didn't even realise it.
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It's back.. I feel the stress again. I've been living happily for the past 3 weeks bcoz promos is over and so I slack for 3 weeks and this is not condonable!
Luckily the hush reality gave a big slap on my face. I don't like who I am now but I have to accept it bcoz I have no ability to change it.
I was too naive to think that my punishment is over. So it was just a break in between, now it is back and I have to endure it. Heaven has done a great thing, they just love to make fun of ppl. You gave me 4 ys of hell and in return? Will u give me what i want? I still have 1 yr plus to go.. rmb what u promise me.
Ya, so just accept it.. accept what I have to be even though I hate it.
I find myself like a stranger. Then I realise something...
You don't need love to survive, not a purpose either.
You can learn to fake, just tell lies and make yourself believe it. If you are able
to bluff yourself that u need nothing, coz u won't be sad. Just keep telling yourself that you're doing fine. Then you've succeed.
Juz learn how to be a money maker coz success is often judge by how much money have u make.
I'm not empty although I'm empty. Nothing can fill me up. Only if i know what I want.
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Let me be a shrinker for one day..juz one day. I got a hunch that something definitely gonna happen on my birthday. "Yay"..that's my project work oral presentation. I will flunk it coz that day is my most unlucky day every yr.
I don't need anyone to tell me that I shouldn't think too much. Tell you frankly, I'm scare, I'm horrified! No one understands... that fear of mine.
I've been horrified by the things i see in that 2 and half mnth, so much so that I don't even wanna rmb it. After which I knew that I'm schedule on that unlucky day, my mental starts to break down.
I know no one understands coz no one sees what I've seen. It took away all my hope and the continuous setbacks coming one after one. Even just by typing it out petrify me. I can't breathe my hands are shaking. Life is so absurd, I'm juz an ordinary girl..but why must I face all this things.. this is so unfair.
All I can do now is to endure.. no matter what.. it will be over soon. How worst can it be? I won't just fall like this.
I know I have offend quite a number of ppl recently. I'm pretty upset bcoz I find them rather superficial. The irony part is these ppl are from the group that i'm hanging out with. LOL
I'm too tried to explain things the I've done and I won't bother to explain. Take it as it be if u chose to think who I am.
Currently juz let me concentrate in dealing with my FEAR first.
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Can you believe it? My teacher ask me how do I find his lesson, and I told him that it is a bit too slow. Yet this is what he responded.. "this is the fastest I can go". OMG,I got nothing to say!
Finally, after 3 weeks Lam Fung 2nd album has arrived. I've been anticipating it whole-heartedly and ummm actually this album sux la.... His 1st album is much better.
BUT as his super fan hahahaha no regrets lol.
I have to admit that my devotion to anything is limited. But I can be very obstinate when I want to be. Lol depends on the situation. I really find that life is absurd sometimes and affinity is harder to comprehend compared to faith and fate.
If you try spinning on the same spot you will realise that u have to focus at something in order to spin continuously. In my life, I tried many times and each time I fall badly. At that time, perhaps I'm naive.. I look at the one I loved which then turn out to be my own wishful thinking. Just like one spinning on the same spot without an aim and so I fall. A bad one.
And so there's a period of time I carry on with my life without knowing what exactly do I want. Now, hopefully the thing I'm looking at when I starts to spin does not fail me. That particular thing is "the mind of letting go".
P.S:All is but just a gust of wind.