Labels: stolen love
This time round I may take a longer time to adjust myself to the right mood and frequencies. It's not easy..there's a bit of struggling, internal resistant and I'm still containing some percentage of rebellion.
Some questioning needed.
What have u been doing for the past 2-3 months?
-Believe it or not. I got this slacker disease and I went in to full hibernation. Basically, I've been slacking all the way even when prelim 1 ended. So the results was so horrific that I didnt pass a single subject. (But i win e bet!! opps)
Any idea how u got this "disease"?
-Reasons were unclear, but I guess it might be due to my sudden loss of passion in everything. I simply feel so numb...so numb that I dont feel anything. Well, not many ppl could understand this...
What could have gotten in to you that make u so numb?
-I think no one bother. Whatever I do makes no difference to anyone. I wasn't being cared?? But I don't need such attention either. Argg...I was wondering whether am I walking circles around my friends or was it the other way round.. and then I got lost. haha
what's ur resolution?
-I tried to provoke one of my teacher by sleeping in the class while we are suppose to do an essay..it was a test actually. Urmmm I succeed haha and got the scolding I yearned. This helps to defrost my numbness and it works haha I feel more like a human now. Hmmm currently, I'm settling down and trying to be a chao mugger or at least I tired to look like one...zzz k k k BE CONSISTENT that's all I can do.
What's ur future aspiration?
-Get a decent job.. (I dont neo how decent is decent duh..) and when everything become more stable then I guess it's time to pursue what I truly wanna do..perhaps some voluntary work (long term, that's y need lots of $$). Aiya whatever it is.. I seriously think that I shld do something for the third world ppl, the poor the sick.. whoever whatever.. if i'm given the chance and ability.. I will.
Anything about ur...love life?
- Sad to say.. I never had any luck in love. So I'm picturing myself and only myself doing all these things alone. Yea~ I'm alone but I'm not lonely. Urmmm what to do? hahah can't help when u totally lost e trust and faith in love. The cruel fact is that like is a novetly, it fades.. so nothing last. All is.. but just a gust of wind. I learn to appreciate such beauty and you know it's not easy LOL. Just don't be too serious haha.
what's nxt for you?
-Hahaha a boring and routine life for the following 4 months!..sobx and I'm telling you the nxt post will probably be in Sep. lol or perhaps not..depending on my mood. haha
Labels: stolen love
After 4 yrs and 6 months, I finally get to see Lam Fung. I'm just simply happy that's all.
Currently, I'm trying to unpack myself. I'll discharge everything..my hate, unhappiness, grudges and my slacker-self. Then, I'll only pick out things that will benefit me. Things that won't make me feel anxious and perplex.
I'm happy that I've changed. I've become more nonchalance to my surrounding. I don't care whether am I revolving or whether am I being revolved.
I'm unhappy because I don't have the ability to change what I can't accept.
I know I have no time to feel sad for such thing, 4 months and that's it. Whatever will be will be, I'll concentrate on things I can control now.