Labels: quandary
Hmmm I'm a little longwinded this week..but still I have to type all these out coz I wldn't have a chance to do so nxt week(busy). The atmosphere in sch was tense, friends around ain't doing good in different aspects. Some in studies some in relationships. I got this very uncomfortable and helpless feeling, it's just like I'm standing in the middle and everyone is changing n moving while I'm the one staying constant. Ya, my life is still quite peaceful at this moment but I have this hunch that things won't be so smooth for me(I'm sure about it).
By observing theirs' emotion that varies so much, I feel so useless coz all I can say to my friends are only those comforting words. After all I've been through all those unhappy times and gotten over it, that's why I understood that is too hurtful to lose something especially out of the unexpected one.
Some gotten the feeling to love again, some stay in their memories and choose to reminisce it. Me?? Hahaha don't know. I'm afraid that I'll become numb.. If I really do then I won't be able to feel any joy, life will become meaningless. Hai..suddenly feel so lost. Have I reach a point of stagnation?
I can't differentiate what's real and what's not. It's too unreal, so unpredictable and so uncertain. Perhaps it's best that I don't move. Everything will be sorted out if it really meant to be the way it is.
Damn, why is everyone so emotional these few days? Juz stay alive and healthy that's more than enough. Hahaha though school life is getting more and more stressful but every laughter I had these few weeks are real.
PS: Can love be revive if it is dead?
希望-薛凯琪
给我最后的微笑好不好
眼泪也不是解药你知道
担心你以后要一个人走爱变伤口天长地久
时间有尽头
总能够再回首变温柔
千言万语难开口
还压在眉头却要放开手
忘了多余的内疚
别忘了爱过就已足够
没有不了的情缘
总会有人要先走
忘了动摇的时候
别忘了泪水不会白流
没有不了的拥有确有回味在心头
最终会变醇酒
To my love that is dead.