Labels: quandary
I have this idea stuck in my head for quite a few weeks. Perhaps the lesson learnt which brought sorrow and agony to my life in that two and a half months was already an indication to me that how I should live my life.
I had enough of disappointment. I can't bear the pain to see anyone leaving. It seriously reminds me how lucky and fortunate I was to have all these. Though I don't get the love I truly want from my parents and the one I like, I came out with another way to divert my pain, anxieties and desires.
I'm thinking about how to contribute to this societies not only through donating but with my strength. Conditions in the third world countries are really horrible urmm and places like India also. Many don't have homes, suffered from famine and natural disasters. Maybe I would join the Non-government organisation (NOGs) to help out somehow. Well this is just my primary idea, still have to work on it.
I just want to bring warmth and hope to others and change this world to a place worth living on. Perhaps only then my existence to this world is worthwhile. Hahaha but back to reality, if I want this to happen, I have to work pretty hard coz I need sufficient money to feed myself while I'm not working LOL.
This is something I really find meaningful, I somehow found a goal to work towards to. Rather than spending time thinking about things that are non-constructive. Well, I'm still young after all. I can afford to make mistakes and learn from it. ^^