Labels: quandary
Thunderstorm arrived a month later then expected. March should be one of the hottest month but weather is unpredictable just like our life.
I hate this kind of life this kind of me this kind of feeling. I envy those who somehow being control by their parents.
Is it because I'm too acquiescence? Urmmm maybe not coz I always make my own decision. They won't prob.. never.. not at all. Let me recall.. I think e very last time they make a decision for me is when I'm in primary sch. Subsequently, I make my own decision. Which secondary sch to go, which course to take. Yea~ you may think I've a lot of freedom. You may think I'm silly, but that's not what I want.
At least they should say something wat..but nothing was mention. Many times I felt that I was left alone to face a lot of stuff.. Very insecure but somehow I'm quite use to it so.. but that doesn't mean I've accepted it!
A lot of stuff came across my mind. I know they still care for me.. but not in the way I wanted. I did think before maybe I should do some rebellion stuff then perhaps they will be more aware of what I'm doing. Urmmm I didn't in the end.. up till now. Coz is too late, I'm a big girl after all.
Regretted being too independent and too decisive in this aspect. I tried to put myself in their shoes. Maybe I'm the less worrying one, that's why they didn't pay much attention to me.
Alas! It can't be change and I'm too tired to do so. Who cares, they don't even bother, why should I? NUMB anyway. Guess my mood will be rather bad for the whole week.. hai spoilt my weekend.