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Saturday, 4 October 2008
My Fear 10:25

I really cannot take it. To others, birthday maybe a day worth celebrating but to me it's a dreadful one. Do you wanna know what's my birthday wish this yr? That is slp through the day.

Let me be a shrinker for one day..juz one day. I got a hunch that something definitely gonna happen on my birthday. "Yay"..that's my project work oral presentation. I will flunk it coz that day is my most unlucky day every yr.

I don't need anyone to tell me that I shouldn't think too much. Tell you frankly, I'm scare, I'm horrified! No one understands... that fear of mine.

I've been horrified by the things i see in that 2 and half mnth, so much so that I don't even wanna rmb it. After which I knew that I'm schedule on that unlucky day, my mental starts to break down.

I know no one understands coz no one sees what I've seen. It took away all my hope and the continuous setbacks coming one after one. Even just by typing it out petrify me. I can't breathe my hands are shaking. Life is so absurd, I'm juz an ordinary girl..but why must I face all this things.. this is so unfair.

All I can do now is to endure.. no matter what.. it will be over soon. How worst can it be? I won't just fall like this.

I know I have offend quite a number of ppl recently. I'm pretty upset bcoz I find them rather superficial. The irony part is these ppl are from the group that i'm hanging out with. LOL

I'm too tried to explain things the I've done and I won't bother to explain. Take it as it be if u chose to think who I am.

Currently juz let me concentrate in dealing with my FEAR first.

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