Labels: move on
Starry starry night, paint your palette blue and grey.. That's how e song goes.
I plan to re-charge myself during this one wk holiday, however gastralgia and diarrhoea broke out. It's been 5 days! How long more muz i suffer?
Have you ever tried walking in the rain(umbrella)and yet feeling cosy? I was walking down the road(10 mins walk)from the bus stop to my house. Ummm is kind of hard to describe.. everythings seems to be there for the sake of u, with Kenny G-forever in love's music in ur ears. It was a perfect match! Gd times don't last long, a van drove pass and drenched me to the skin. (i curse the driver of course)
Continue with my jounery, i began to think of my lowest peak (Nov&Dec'07). Juz like these few days, it was raining non-stop. Everyday seems to be hopeless and lifeless. Losing a frenz is worst than losing anyone else, esp there's only one true frenz. Fortunately, i manage to survive. My sadness was eased whenever i think of the setback faced in that period. In comparison with losing ur kin, my worries and troubles become insignificant. 活在当下.. these four words always appear in my mind,
I take things easliy.
Rmb back at those time, i was torturing myself. Silly me, i could have let go and free myself, but persistence blind my eyes. Now, i dislike raining day. Still, i'm feeling blue, somehow i try my very best to cry, perhaps it has alrdy dried up long ago.
Humans are afraid of loneliness, it's human nature. Dont blame yourself if u're one of them. I feel no emptiness! Probably, it's a make up for things that i've lost. I now dare to stand alone in the bus stop and every single corner in the sch. I even yearn for a moment of silence. In this forlorn institute, i have to back up in order to make myself worthly. I dont care whether am i worthly or wothless in other people's eyes. Inferiority hunts me no more.
If you felt that something is missing in your life, i believed that it is replaceable. Solitude may not be a bad thing, at least i've embark myself on the journey on searching for a secluded life.